I am struggling to enjoy food. I felt like I was finally reaching the peak of the gluten-free mountain and the challenge was soon to be conquered. Almost 2 weeks ago my new doctor suggested I also go off of dairy, eggs, and yeast as a way to see if I was truly allergic (allergy panel says I am) and potentially get rid of my chronic migraines. Elimination diets are intended to rid your body of toxins and is a great way to test allergies. I committed to this extreme diet because I will do anything short of jail time to get rid of the migraines. So I can essentially eat produce, nuts, GF grains, and meat. This sucks. Not like an inconvenient suckage, but an intense, depressing suckage. As you know, food is a really special thing in my life - it's family, love, travel, spice burning on your tongue, comparing different flavor profiles....I feel like that joy is just gone, poof.
Having food allergies and celiac disease pop into my life as an adult feels like a chronic illness. I know it sounds dramatic, but it's how I am experiencing it. I'm angry. I'm grieving. I'm tired of hearing myself talk about food and what I can and can't eat. People can't outwardly see how much of a struggle this is for me but internally I am drowning.
Why don't you just cook more veggies and fruits? Awesome suggestion! I'll get right on that in a year and a half when I am done with my master's program. I don't know how to cook produce well and in a short amount of time. With my schedule I have to cook for a few days at a time with leftovers for class nights... cooked veggies turn into mush and frankly I'd rather not eat. If you have suggestions, I'm open to them. For now, I will go back to sipping a soy chai and doing homework.
